Story – feeling guilty about my past choices

I am the only daughter for my parents and I was living with my parents after marriage once we moved back to India (after a few years of stay in US). It’s been around 10 years that I have been living with my parents along with my son, daughter and husband. Last September 2022, I had lots of difference of opinion with my mother and I wanted to be more independent and I wanted to make individual decisions in my life. So I moved out and we rented a place closer to my kids school. Which meant that my 80 year old father and 74 year old mother had to live alone by themselves and they had to take care of themselves.

At that time, I didn’t feel guilty about the move, and I wanted the space and independence so much that I was very happy about my decision.

I moved to a place which is about 20 minutes drive from my parents place. I do visit them often and also make sure that the doctor visits are done on time.

Last weekend I attended my cousins house warming function. My parents were also there and I saw that my father was sick. He is a heart patient who underwent heart surgery twice. He also has inguinal hernia and had severe stomach pain and vomiting when I met him last weekend. I immediately started feeling guilty, that I would be responsible and it was a bad decision that I left elderly people alone. I brought them home along with me to take care of them but I was feeling guilty.

I then decided that God is responsible for everything that happens, and everything that happens always has a good reason behind it. I decided to trust the benevolence in the universe.

After a couple of days stay at my place, my father felt much better and wanted to go back to his place.

My learning to share:

It’s ok to own my wants and decisions. I don’t have to feel guilty about my decisions since there is always benevolence in this lovely universe! This universe is benevolent for sure!

Question to my dear readers:

Do you feel guilty about your past choices?